Formerly known as StaticSkull. Ligma borthole.
Age 23, Female
fuck this life
kill yourself
you'll never be happy
Joined on 1/11/18
I love you, I wish I could be there with you. Seeing you hurt like this makes me so sad because I know what you're going through, I wish I could tell you how to get away from these feelings but I don't even know how I ever did.
All I can say is that I love you, you are not meaningless to me, you are everything to me, I know that won't fix the trauma you've experienced as a child or your mental state but it's all I can give.
listen man i dont really know what to say but we are here for you
man same
I had to call the hotline in the middle of work and I still dont feel good. I'm gonna try to change my meds when I get home
Well you're lucky dude, because you got quite a few people here who really want to see you get better. But we can only help you if you choose to help yourself. Plenty of people have been in your exact situation and they have managed to get better and become happy, as you put it. I used to be severely depressed and while it's not perfect now I'm still doing way better than I have in a long time.
You can take all the medicine and attend all the therapy sessions in the world, but none of it will do anything if you refuse to change your own mindset. These things aren't cures, they're supplements for those who are already desperately trying to change. If you've already come to the conclusion that you'll absolutely never be happy and everything sucks, then yeah medicine won't fix that.
It really does come down to when you are willing to say "fuck this shit, I don't wanna live like this anymore". I'm sure we'll all still be here when you do.
Hang in there. You'll find your purpose.
This is going to sound pretty dorky but one thing that helped me with positive self talk is I would write myself notes that described me in a positive way or a thing I liked about myself and keep them and read them when I felt bad. I'd also keep notes from other people to read. When you have a negative thought about yourself, acknowledge it and re-word it to be more accepting. A lot of the inner narrative you have about yourself can stem from the way you were spoken to as a child.
I've felt that way many a time. It gets better with the right kind of help. Try CBT (both kinds lol), try a new drug (effexor worked wonders for me, YMMV), try looking at yourself in the mirror every day and saying something positive about you.
Come hang out with me for a month and we'll lift weights together. I guarantee it'll change your life. You'll be too exhausted to be sad. You'll be too intertwined in a community that cares about your success to ever feel alone.
Definitely know that feeling. Wish I could’ve found the answer sooner, but for me, it was volunteering that gave me the motivation I needed to keep going and not feel as empty. Hope you find your motivation someday. Hit my inbox if you ever need to vent. Want to see you get out of the place you’re in dude
I have that wave of emotion where I give up all hopes of everything. Terrible to hear of a bad childhood. Your 20 and you could have the freedom to change your way of thinking and decision, good or bad, because unlike adulthood, you'll stuck with the same people for a few years without having the financial decision to move out (unless you have rich parents that provide yourself a separate building). Therapy may won't work for anyone but you'll be friends that can provide you support. Try your best to express your feelings, if it need work, try write it in a notebook and translate to tell your friends about it.
Hope this helps you,
Wait a minute: this isn't a shitpost.
But seriously, I understand where you're getting at. If you need a to PM me about anything, you're welcome to do so.
That goes for anyone else also.
Just get friends or a girlfriend at least do not get down and live life if you commit suicide or something reminds your relatives or Miku's doll just get someone to share your feelings and more crap I also went through something like that but Having friends changed my life I was always obnoxious like you but now that I can express my feelings and things with someone I'm glad JUST TRY TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF LIFE IT'S SIMPLE, go for a walk and talk to someone who is just going to look like a lunatic Less you will be something I know that having friends is something difficult for sure for you but at least try to do any kind of thing. Have a nice day
Damn man, of all the people here I could've expected would get this introspective you really weren't one of them... this does explain a lot. :/ Sorry to hear you're in that kind place right now, though I gotta stress right now, even if it does feel like the now is a constant it's not, it doesn't need to be! If you can still move around you have the power to change your life entirely too.
Key point maybe: work. You do become what you do. A lack of purpose in the workplace leeches off into free time, maybe since it's the one thing you can't really escape. If you can find something you really enjoy doing I'm sure this'll change though. Or if that's just not possible/not possible yet: find a hobby you really enjoy. Distractions only work so long. Maybe there's a point in life at which they stop working; we outgrow the reward systems that worked earlier on. I'm hopping in and out of a similar sensation of stagnation and meaninglessness myself, but fortunately I do have some people I enjoy being around, and some pastimes that still distract me from the inevitable, and practices that fortunately generate a sense of appreciation or understanding, at least. But the inevitable really seems to be: to find a purpose.
Either in yourself or someone else. Volunteering. Getting a pet. Helping out with anything you can. Building a family might help. I keep hearing how drastically your perception of life changes if you do, but you can't really force that. To get a job I'm really passionate about though, that should be step one. To spend my time only on things that actually better myself should be the second priority. To exercise as much as possible. To hone sentiments that benefit me, and try to meditate away those that don't. To breath. Maybe start a routine with something like this if it works for you: https://youtu.be/0BNejY1e9ik
Just something to feel a bit more grounded. Affirmations. Workouts. Anything that builds the body builds the mind. Diet has such a big impact on the psyche too. If your ggut biome affects your mind negatively maybe pre or probiotics could be a start. When you're in a clearer state of mind you make better choices, and I feel like THAT might be how you can ultimately really find the motivation to change your life.
Everybody likes to preach about self-betterment practices but do hope that might offer some kind of guidance. :) I sometimes go marathon through TED talks too in search of new inspiration. Wim Hof videos. Russel Brand too lately. I'm not religious but am starting to feel like spirituality serves a pretty big purpose too, and the way we've replaced it with tech can't be healthy. We never slow down. We game our reward systems and waste our energy on things that don't really matter, and forget about what's really important
I believe in you man! Ganbatte! You have a ten year headstart on me too right now, should be plenty of time to figure out your dreams; start moving towards them. ;) One day at a time.
Heavy, but I hope all goes well for you. :-)
the album that represents you is Tormented by Staind
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DrunkGecko
and no im not going to kill myself or cut myself. i dont see the point in that anymore. but that wont stop my feelings