Letter To Mom

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Skarlet Octavia @DrunkGecko

Age 23, Female

fuck this life

kill yourself

you'll never be happy

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Letter To Mom

Posted by DrunkGecko - December 27th, 2022

I have trudged through the murky waters of existence

I do not know how many more years I can promise resistance

You and I both know I am doomed in these conditions

Eventually, death is destined to be my decision

And at that point, it will not matter if I am forgiven

All you can do is accept my eventual riddance

In the end, I cannot help but to laugh maniacally at my sickness

For even the grief is ultimately futile and meaningless

Until the time comes that I bow my head to the noose

I will remain among the living, not for me, but for you

That does not make it easy to not to burn down my roots

We all have our ways of distracting from the memories of abuse

So please, when I do eventually resort to suicide

I beg you not to make believe that I have not tried

With each passing day, these thoughts are amplified

But I will ensure you are happy, before I have died

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NurmGuts 2022-12-27 16:34:01

Dude ur fine?

DrunkGecko 2022-12-27 16:34:01

idk anymore

NurmGuts 2022-12-27 18:28:13

@DrunkGecko well idfk if i can even help or if u even want someone to help u

Ehhh i just hope that u wont do anything stupid buddy

Remi-le-Oduen 2022-12-28 00:09:33

That's grim. If that's what you really feel about yourself, than it might be wise to ask for help from doctors, or at least share it directly with your close ones. But expressing it like this is good too, saying it sometimes helps enough. It's normal to feel bad and down.Times are real rough, but it's gonna be okay, and people will prevail. Take care, give yourself some rest if possible.

Hallucinogen2 2022-12-28 08:40:56

please be careful, man. i think i can speak for at least the bbs, we love you dearly

YenMuffin 2022-12-28 23:10:25

I don't want you to end up like Metamorphosis Amy Rose. :(

NN434444 2022-12-29 12:03:50

Please don't commit suicide. If you are going through depression I suggest you talk to a therapist or a family member.

ChiralAnomaly 2022-12-31 06:44:00

Sent you a friend request. Hope it will make you feel better.

Doggonnys 2022-12-31 22:32:34

Hey man I hope you’re doing fine. If u are reading this please don’t commit suicide it would be a huge loss for NG and way more importantly it would be awful for you friends and family irl.

DrunkGecko 2022-12-31 22:32:34

I have no friends IRL. My only social interaction is at work. And my mom is the only family I have. But I promise you I'm not going to die young. Only after 40 will I probably consider it. I still have a lot to do.

sincronikon 2023-01-01 12:28:37

@DrunkGecko Just caught this, and I'm glad to read you'll be sticking around :).

I'll be approaching that 40 myself not too long from now; lost my mother a couple years ago (effectively, my only family); am recovering from injury (no work); and lost contact with most IRL friends awhile ago.

If you ever feel alone, know that you aren't. If your mother is good to you, return the favour by looking after yourself now. Health trends downward as we age, but if you're in a good strong position, you'll be able to help anyone who deserves it when they need it most - usually, later on :).

Go forward secure in the knowledge that time, by itself, heals most wounds. Looks like you've got support here, at least! Please be well in 2023.

Letter To Mom

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