i hate myself

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Skarlet Octavia @DrunkGecko

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i hate myself

Posted by DrunkGecko - February 4th, 2023

first off, i was half joking half not

second not even remotely close to how that works

do you think everyone with depression thinks they're important? i assure you they dont

i thought you were done being an asshole after you finally realized you defended a pedophile named mist for years

then again there is no cure for down syndrome

i hate myself because of 18 years of sexual mental and physical abuse

were you raped at 4? were you held upside down and beaten at 3? did you get beaten half to death from the ages of 7 to 18?

no you didnt @0315-1015

and yet im the one stuck with these suicidal thoughts, while people like you are the ones who actually deserve to kill themselves

@malachy already banned me and didnt even give the correct reason

hes banned me multiple times for a whole month before over petty shit and you cant even get the reason why correct? because you werent defending anybody. you were just so trigger happy to ban me.

i guarantee he didnt ban the guy who started it, because malachy is never consistent with his Bans as far as ive seen

For examples you can view other newsposts

so thank you for rewarding a guy who defends pedophiles, tells me im a narcissist for having to deal with sexual trauma, and has said many slurs that he was not banned for

you do a great job at enforcing the rules of this site

And I know you only did it because you don't like me

Evidenced by how you talk so condescending to me as if I'm a child

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Wegra 2023-02-04 23:08:54

Wow Malachy is a retarded faggot huh?

DrunkGecko 2023-02-04 23:08:54

I'm sick of taking pills so I don't kill myself. Every single fucking day my thoughts are so loud that I find myself saying "I want to fucking kill myself" out loud under my breath over and over for 10 fucking minutes straight. My fucking manager came to me about it because a group of customers heard me saying it. I didn't even realize I was saying it out loud. I'm not even upset about being banned. I'm upset that no matter where I go I am constantly reminded of being hurt so badly. I can barely focus on work. My mind is so jumbled that I just now took my pills out and I can't even remember if I took it yet. I hate my life. I wish I knew you IRL because I need a hug from the only family I have.

Wegra 2023-02-05 00:23:38

@DrunkGecko I'll take that a massive yes

CIEIRMusic 2023-02-05 05:56:20

Look, whatever's going on between you two, not my business, I have no stake in this whatsoever, but to lighten the mood a bit two things that might make you both laugh. One. Because I've got you both on follow, I could literally see your post and their post on the matter stacked up on top of each other. Which is kinda funny and two, the whole thing comes across like a modern day version of Casino's Desert Scene:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AQYWoD_rP9o

Who Joe Pesci is between you two, is whom

Flestor 2023-02-05 09:50:29

hey @DrunkGecko are you ok man like for real i would hate to see anybody like this especially a fellow brother of newgrounds.

like i don't know what the hell is going on between you and these other people but it sounds like you've been going through some rough shit, do you need someone to talk to or a friend perhaps because i really hate to see somebody go into a downward spiral of madness and depression.

like if you need somebody to talk to im all ears.

RamenButLeaf 2023-02-05 13:12:58

While I didn't get raped & physically abused that much, this situation is so similar to what I'm living. Those thoughts fucking suck. It hurts. It ruins my life. So it must probably be worse for you.

I really hope that karma is real & that those people will pay for the harassment & disgusting stuff that they did. Internet is supposed to be a place to forget about irl, not to make mental health even worse, especially over a literal joke. That's just not okey, at all.

DrunkGecko 2023-02-05 13:12:58

He tried to convince me that he said that because he cared about my well being. No dude. There is no scenario where saying that helps me

RamenButLeaf 2023-02-06 02:43:28

@DrunkGecko I highly doubt openly mocking someone like that & censoring them is "caring about someone's well being". It's just another cyberbully looking for excuses.

I would like to suggest solutions, but I don't see one except contacting Tom. In my case, my situation doesn't happen on NG, so I don't think I can really help.

Anyway, you did good to call him out on his behaviour. In general, silence makes everything worse, in contrary to what many people claim.

ethanblair 2023-02-06 04:11:38

The Moderaters Are Human To They Have Stuff To Maintain In The Site Everyday Theres Plenty Room For Error . . . Please Do Not Take It Personally People Useually Get Banned Useing Slurs Or Hate Speech Against Another User That Unless Users Consent To Be Verbally Abused Should Not Be Tolerated

Its Not Really A Matter Of Opinion I Used To Be Guilty Of This But I Would Not Recommend Publically Shameing Anyone Even If They Were Pedophiles As It Gets Lots Of Bad Attention And Is Best Handled With Someone In Charge

I Do Not Really Want To Speak Upon The Half Joke Half Serious Shit As Its Up To You What You Find Funny Mainly Because We Both Have A Dark Sense Of Humor And I Feel For The Most Part You Should Be Allowed To Post Pretty Much Whatever

I Will Say This Its Not The Greatest Idea To Get Really Personal Info Intertwined As Humor It Tends To Backfire Miserable And Makes You Regret It

Your Fine Man Just Try To Be More Level Headed Next Time And Avoid Users Who Make You Uncomfortable Best Wishes

DrunkGecko 2023-02-06 04:11:38

yeah. they are human. but hes also the only one who fucks up this bad. hes the only one i've had such a bad experience with. and hes the only one to have banned me multiple times for a full month over the pettiest reasons because i had pissed him off.

Shai-P 2023-02-06 18:13:21

Love ya Chris.

FamicomBoy 2023-02-12 08:37:25

Moderation on Newgrounds has been atrocious for awhile. They don't even know how to do their fucking job. Don't let those incest assholes bring you down.

SpookDev 2023-02-12 14:16:21

Kinda late, but i hope it'll be alright!

ChernobogCleric 2023-03-01 07:26:16

NG mods are betas.

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