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DrunkGecko
Formerly known as StaticSkull. Ligma borthole.

Skarlet Octavia @DrunkGecko

Age 23, Female

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Brappenwurst College

Hell, Norway

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"new" music is out

Posted by DrunkGecko - June 24th, 2023


not so much new, but more of, a compilation of projects that never got released onto bandcamp

genres are various, but mostly electronic

for the most part, expect chiptune, cybergrind, breakcore, and relaxing electronic stuff


This album art is a crime scene image of a father who brutally killed his baby while on drugs. The babys corpse was in the top left corner but i cropped it out as i feel it was too much. To my knowledge this image was taken by the police when they arrived. he himself is not dead. hes wrapped in a blanket and screaming. much like my abusers who remain alive. i just felt it was appropriate to use this image. Because these past 5 years that these unreleased songs were made in are some of the most horrific times of my life. I was still living with abusive parents, worrying about when my biological family would become clean, and constantly thinking about when i lost my innocence from the same kind of abuse and more as a baby. What better represents times of child abuse than a dead baby. What better represents drug use than a cracked out dad. What better represents abusive parents than a child killer. And what better represents trying to move on from the abuse of the past, then cutting the baby out of frame. Of course the blood is still there. And these memories will still be here. All i can do is move forward from this point on and try to push the thoughts of it out of frame. I hope you enjoy the music.


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At least you're trying to move forward. I applaud you for that.(And for the music, of course)

My abusive adoptive father has apparently been dead for two years. Very unsatisfying. And it turns out my grandfather most likely didn't molest me. It was more likely some family friend named Eddie who just like my abusive adoptive dad, is also dead. Died from aids. My life has been a lie. My life has been pointless. There is no healing. There is no justice. There is no hope. Every time I take a step forward i take two steps back to hell

Please don't kill yourself. :'(

Stop saying that. Just stop. It's not gonna happen. No matter how much I wish it would

@peepers I don't even remember being molested. I only know it happened because I was sexually touching friends until I was like 11, not knowing what I was doing. No memory of it. So hearing a cousin I haven't seen in years describe to me: he has to take me home from a family friends house, I was screaming and crying, and when I went to the bathroom there was semen in my urine. That's disgusting. It hurts to listen to. I'm starting a new medication now but I really have just given up all hope. I've been trying to work on myself. And every time I make progress something else fucks me up.

@DrunkGecko "I've been trying to work on myself. And every time I make progress something else fucks me up."
Some of that you can just chalk up to Life. Life is peaks and valleys. For me, I just have to actively search for some sort of balance between out-of-my-fucking-mind-mania, and bed-ridden-depression. It takes work, but it is possible.

Absolutely banger music. it inspired me to work on old projects that I havent touched in a while

about the family, it sounds like you're on the right track trying to move on despite how hard it is to. I can't imagine the mental aguish but you still making jokes and music shows to me that you're a real fighter and that gives me a lot of hope for your future. if it's any consolation, you do have family in newgrounds, people do still care about you.

what has happened to you is unjust and tragic and I wish you the best of luck to your future endeavors and that one day you'll find the true happiness and peace you deserve.

XOXO
~anymany

love u