Day after day, an invisible cloud of poison surrounds me

The incredible amount of shame never fails to astound me

No matter where I try hiding, the pain has still found me

And spreads like a plague to all loved ones around me

I tear my arm off, my skin tender and soft as bread

I break apart every bone beneath my wilted flesh

It's all I can do to escape my own sick head

It's either self inflicted pain or another shot at death

Please stop laughing at me…

I like to think that I give back the treatment I receive

So then why do I cause innocent people to seethe?

Maybe I'm more evil than I would like to believe

Maybe I deserve to be hanging from the trees

Exhausted, I don't have the energy to further cry

I've lost it, I was born with a horribly unstable mind

I'm tossing, misanthropic and sleep deprived

A faucet, blood pouring from this neck of mine

Stabbing, screaming, beating, burning, rape

Such horrible sounds that torment my fragile brain

I want to love, but all I've ever known is hate

My heart is trapped in a barbed wire cage

Dead trees beckon to me…