Formerly known as StaticSkull. Ligma borthole.
Age 23, Female
fuck this life
kill yourself
you'll never be happy
Joined on 1/11/18
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Posted by DrunkGecko - May 29th, 2021
I got banned for 4 days because I called projects-dev a retard for still defending mist. Just in case anyone's wondering where I am. If you'll excuse me, I'm taking a shit
Posted by DrunkGecko - May 23rd, 2021
im tired of everything. all i do is work, play games, and sleep. its pathetic and meaningless. i havent even made music in 9 months. the medicine i take is doing nothing to help. all the therapy i've taken was a waste of time. i hate my life and i truly believe that is something that is never going to change. i feel hopeless and i dont even have it in me to cry anymore. i have nobody in real life to talk to about this, and even if i did, i would be too busy fighting back tears to get a word out.
i've been such a hateful person recently and i know its because i hate myself. i dont love myself and i never will. there is no fixing me. 20 years led me to this. i became an adult before i even had the chance to grow up or enjoy my nightmare of a childhood.
the words "i hate myself" and "i hate my life" have been repeating in my head for what seems like my entire life.
maybe tomorrow, when my bbs ban is lifted i'll be able to fill the hole in my heart with a temporary high from the stupid shit i post. but i know that it'll only suppress my real feelings. im not happy and i never will be
